I am a day dreamer.
Ever since I was little my head has been full of noisy, colourful ideas. Its partly due to my genetic make up but it's also part of the Tourettes, specifically the anxiety part - Anxious people often become insular escapists, many of the most imaginative, creative and expressive people I know suffer with poor mental health. Perhaps we all create some form of art or instant fantasy when we feel bored or stressed and maybe that's a good thing.
As a child I used to imagine borrowers everywhere. I saw them building houses in parking meters, I imagined how I would turn a cotton reel into a table and I would day dream that a borrower in a make shift cart was being pulled along by our car on long car journeys, I even imagined the flaming red hair and aviator googles my borrower would be wearing. I never gave my borrowers names or even personalities it was always about seeing the world from a different perspective.
I loved to design their clothes out of objects I had seen and fantasized about tiny pulley systems and tunnels under the floor. As I look around me now I can see how this desk would be a brilliant borrower house, rooms in each draw, a garden in the alcove I sit in, you could even have a balcony on the slide out desk extensions. All of these things I can see and imagine, I suppose it's my secret super power, 'I see borrowers!', I am of course joking borrowers are fictional - and if they aren't I've never seen one!
The truth is I still imagine borrowers, when I feel stressed or pressured I sit and imagine them, moving about doing their own thing as I watch them. In my head I guess I'm invisible. A nice kind of invisible, I am not relevant to a world with simpler problems, like how to get an old sock from the laundry to the attic, and it's a strange kind of comfort.
The world has always been fascinating to me, it appears so simple but even a leaf has tiny inner workings and systems that I will never see in action. I may never travel to far off places, I'm not keen on public transport and can't see myself being able to afford a private jet any time soon! But I intent to enjoy every near by place I can, even small imaginary places.